If you didn't know you might have changed

then you probably won't know the disappointment you put me through with your words and behavior.

Yea, probably i over-reacted if you like to name it that way, but have u ever tot how you look like when you talk now? Have you ever wonder suaning me is never like a joke to me anymore?

The hundred time i tot of just stop appearing and leaving for good since i don't think my existence makes anymore difference since there is no longer comfort and blissfulness i feel in it that i used to. The hundred time i tell myself that its my own freaking problem so i shld do my best to stop it and everything will be back to normal. The hundred time i tell myself i will go back and try it all over again and i will definitely be able to merge back.

I was wrong. =) Its never easy to maintain friendship, they come and go as we grow older. I never believe it when i was still younger and now, i believe it. Its all bulls when i used to talked abt how a grp can be maintained and as long as u put in effort, you can do it.

Jus a pack of lies maybe. Its up to you to agree or not.


Nevertheless, it is still my own problem and it is still not resolved. Whether it is gg to be resolve now or in the future, probably it only matters to me and not anyone else.

Then again, so what if i made the decision to leave? I guess probably no one can understand and it was back to pushing it to my own attitude towards things. If you're not the one experiencing it, you will never know how the crap it feels.

我舍不得放手因为我知道一但放了就真的没了。
可是我也知道总有一天我会毫不犹豫的放。

till then, i will still keep trying.